52 Lists for Happiness by Moorea Seal- Why I've Chosen To Write in this Journal Weekly

I haven't talked about losing my brother Meyer Nechemya 5 months ago much. It's just too complicated in my head to put into words yet. I'm doing ok, and at the same time I'm really not doing ok. A piece of my heart is gone, ripped out of my chest so brutally. And there is so much unfinished business too, so much that I can't even begin to look through because it brings that knowledge to the forefront again. That I won't see him again, that he won't give me one of his amazing hugs again, that I won't get to make him laugh that deep funny laugh of his, that he won't give my kids those fun rides he did. One day I will tell you about it, about how special and amazing he was, about how many amazing times and memories I had with him, about his great love for all living things. For now, I will continue to heal, and build and support and make great change in a cold, cruel world that is capable of so much beauty it does not contain. 

I would never have thought this could be the case, but losing my brother, my best friend who was just 3 years younger then me, changed me so abruptly. I suddenly realized how much I had to do in such a short time. And that is why I refuse to be beaten down and I will only build myself up to be the best possible version of myself. I will be positive, I will make great progress and I will celebrate my brothers memory in the best possible way I can. My plans are large and I need to take one day at a time but healing is the first priority. I've found that being productive and organized is what brings me the most clarity through the tunnel of anguish swirling around my head.  

One of the greatest things I've discovered is engaging in acts of self help and living in the moment. That is why finding this book on the shelves of Urban Outfitters several weeks ago, has been life changing. For real! It's called 52 lists for Happiness and it was written by a women named Moorea Seal. Inspiring, beautiful photos fill the pages of this journal along with 52 lists, one for each week of the year and blank lines for the reader to fill in. When I purchased it I thought it would just be another journal, notebook, planner that I loved the idea of but would soon realize I had piled along with 20 others like it and never used. But I'm proud to say that is not the case. I am just simply hooked on this book and I love opening it when I get a free moment in my week to jot something in that I thought of. What I've found is this: reflecting on things, people and actions that make you happy, actually make you even happier and transform you into a more positive person actively searching for the good in your day to day. I thought writing the lists would take a lot of thought but they truly do come easy to me. There is just so much to be grateful for each day when I open my eyes in the morning and welcome another day, another week, another month of great opportunity. I am up to list 5 now which is titled: List the best choices you have made in your life so far. On the top of the list is obviously marrying my husband with whom with I would not have made it through a utterly rough summer without.  I could fill pages for this one. Think for a few moments of some things you feel are the best choices you've made so far in your life. You will find that you have so many things to find joy in, I promise you. 

I am calling this my little happiness project. And although I didn't start it at the beginning of the year because I needed to start writing in it the moment I brought it home, I plan to write in it until I finish the very last list. This book is just one small thing I've been doing to help myself heal, see the good in the world around me and be productive even through the deep sadness that envelopes my heart. If you are going through a tough time that a little self help can fix, I highly recommend getting yourself a copy of this book and trying it for yourself. It's so simple and yet so life changing. 

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